Christmas went by really fast this year. Something just felt off and I'm not sure I ever really got in the Christmas spirit. I think I was too worried about what was coming when the season ended.
What was coming that I was dreading?
Work. That's right. Its finally time. I returned to my previous job this week at the credit union call center. I am only going to be working part time, just 15 hours a week. This week I went Monday to fill out rehire paperwork and yesterday for security training, the only part of new hire training that I was forced to repeat. Chris's mom is going to be watching him and so far its going very well as far as that's concerned. He already knows her well so he takes naps well for her and everything. I should be working two 6 hour days and then 9:00 to noon on Saturdays. I have to admit that it was good to be back in the building catching up with my former coworkers. It feels good to be part of the outside world again.
When I left Monday morning and got in my car, I was expecting the tears to start falling...but it never happened. I realized that I wasn't upset the way I thought I would be. Of course I missed Emmett and it was a relief to get home to him. But it wasn't the earth-shattering heart-breaking experience I was expecting. I think I can actually do this. And I really have my mother-in-law to thank for that peace of mind. If I was leaving him at daycare with strangers, things would be a lot different. Well, if that was necessary, I wouldn't be going back to work at all. I just hope that when I get my paycheck it will be worth it.
i'm glad work turned out to be better than you thought it would be! i'm sure it will feel great to get that paycheck. i think about going back to work at some point, but i might just wait until finn is in school, since we don't really NEED the money...
ReplyDeleteYeah, I wouldn't be if I didn't have to. You are lucky not to have to worry about the money. I'm hoping if I work some now that maybe I can save up so that we can have another baby and I can stay home again. Then once both kids are in school I will probably try my hand at teaching again to make the most out of the Masters degree I worked so hard to get.
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